Tsunami

"Did you hear the news?" Delila asked when she entered the daycare this morning. She quickly filled us in about the Earthquake in Japan and how there were tsunami warnings for here in Baja California. Being worrier that I can be sometime I immediately began thinking about what if there was a huge tsunami here? What if this was my last day on earth? What would I want to tell people? Did I live to the fullest? Do I have any relationships that I have not mended? Being faced with a thought like that really puts you in the right perspective. We shouldn't be worrying about this finally when the day comes, I believe we should live each day like this. We never know if its our last and so we shouldn't stake our hopes in our future. Don't wait until tomorrow to apologize or say I love you because what if tomorrow never comes? To be honest I felt a sense of peace when it came to many parts of my life. After the death of my friend Sarah God has really made me realize how short life is and so I've made a great effort to live each day to the fullest and to never leave someone on the wrong note. By the grace of God I was able to mend the one relationship that was left on a bad note and now I can say honestly I do not have a single relationship that I'm left worrying about. I've really made a point to live my life to the fullest. One thing however was on my mind, one thing I wanted to change. Many times I find myself keeping to myself my real motives, my real reasons behind everything I do, and that would be my faith. Every part of who I am, and how I live is because of my Savior Jesus Christ. I don't want people to believe I'm just a nice person, or believe that I have good morals, because thats not it at all. I'm not a naturally nice person or have good morals everything I am and everything I believe is because of the change Christ has made in my life. It's only Him in me that is the beauty. He is the reason I wake up each morning passionately excited about the day before me, because I can live each moment of the day for him and allow those around me to experience HIS love. It's because of Him that I have love because HE first loved me. He loved me exactly how I am. He made me so content in the way that I am that I do not have to worry about how others view me, I do not have to worry about having a bunch of money or looking beautiful or being "successful" as the world sees successful. He loves me just as I am! I am filled with his love and joy everyday and therefore I do not even have to worry about myself but can pour out love on those around me because I have all the love I need. I would not be who I am and would not do what I do if it weren't for Jesus Christ. Now don't freak out I'm not dying and I hope my mom doesn't read this and freak out but I just want to be sure that one day when i DO die that my life would point to Jesus Christ. That people would look at my life and know there IS a God and He passionatly loves his children and that I dedicated my life to living for him, and every minute was worth it! Often times people don't want to listen when people share about their faith because they think it is just that person trying to pressure them to accept what they believe. Thats not what I am trying to do. I don't want to force anyone to believe anything because you can't. It has to be that persons choice. All I know is what I've experienced in my life I wish everyone could experience. I wish every person I met could KNOW the Lord and feel what I feel everyday in my heart. That's my hearts desire.