I haven't written on here for quite some time but there was something I wanted to share. Last night I was really struggling with loneliness. It is a feeling I cannot escape at times. I think part of it is because I have a very emotionally draining job. I spend day after day pouring into people. Don't get me wrong, I love my job I wouldn't trade it for anything. The thing is, sometimes at the end of the day I feel weak. Sometimes I long for someone to show me the same love that I've shown so many. I long for someone to go out of their way to show me that I am important to them. This is a huge struggle for me. I know that my thoughts aren't logical all the time because I do have people that love me but there are times when no person can love me in the way that I need to be loved at that time. I fell asleep last night with a very heavy heart, but God's mercies are new every morning and He encouraged me with this.
1 John 4:19 "We love Him because He first loved us"
I needed that because right there is the One who loves me completely. I've done nothing to earn that love. I do not have to plead for that love. I do not have to ask for Him to love me the way I need, He does it naturally. I have to teach myself day after day that no human being will completely love me in the way I need, but my God does continually and I must just abide in love.
