I was growing discouraged today as I had to be on my girls heals barking orders at them all morning. "Nieves you're distracted again, keep cleaning!" "Dalia you're not leaving your bedroom till it's clean" "Rocio this is the LAST time I am helping you clean your closet. If you mess it up again you're doing it yourself!" "Ana you didn't sweep well there is still a bunch of dirt on the sidewalk" "Esme did you wash your socks and underwear?" "Stop fighting or I will send you BOTH to your beds" Sometimes I feel like I'm always nagging the girls and I hate it. I thought to myself today, the job of a parent really isn't fun. Here you are with the children you love yet you are responsible of them, training them, disciplining them, and having them do the necessary daily tasks. To sum it up, you get to be the bad guy. I was thinking how much I'd just love to be a friend to my kids and my only responsibility would be to have fun with the kids. It would be so care free! I grow so angry with myself when I find myself short with the girls or paying more attention to the tasks they need to do rather than spending time with them. Sometimes I just feel like an utter failure. Tonight as I was about to get in bed I checked my facebook to find that one of my girls had written me. She wrote "ola te quiero mucho con todo mi corazon y con mi carino me gusta que me cuides por que eres muy divertida y gracias por ayudarme a la tarea y por que me cuidaas te quiero " Translated it says "Hello I love you very much with all of my heart and carino(can't even translate that word right), I like it when you take care of me because you are very fun and thank you for helping me with my homework and because you take care of me i love you" It almost brought tears to my eyes it was so sweet. My girls give me so much grace. Even when I mess up, when I don't treat them with love, they bless me with hugs and kisses and snuggle up next to me or fall asleep in my arms. That makes it all worth it. I love them so very very much, they are blessings from God to me.
Ithemba
Saturday, March 26, 2011
The little moments remind me its all worth it
I was growing discouraged today as I had to be on my girls heals barking orders at them all morning. "Nieves you're distracted again, keep cleaning!" "Dalia you're not leaving your bedroom till it's clean" "Rocio this is the LAST time I am helping you clean your closet. If you mess it up again you're doing it yourself!" "Ana you didn't sweep well there is still a bunch of dirt on the sidewalk" "Esme did you wash your socks and underwear?" "Stop fighting or I will send you BOTH to your beds" Sometimes I feel like I'm always nagging the girls and I hate it. I thought to myself today, the job of a parent really isn't fun. Here you are with the children you love yet you are responsible of them, training them, disciplining them, and having them do the necessary daily tasks. To sum it up, you get to be the bad guy. I was thinking how much I'd just love to be a friend to my kids and my only responsibility would be to have fun with the kids. It would be so care free! I grow so angry with myself when I find myself short with the girls or paying more attention to the tasks they need to do rather than spending time with them. Sometimes I just feel like an utter failure. Tonight as I was about to get in bed I checked my facebook to find that one of my girls had written me. She wrote "ola te quiero mucho con todo mi corazon y con mi carino me gusta que me cuides por que eres muy divertida y gracias por ayudarme a la tarea y por que me cuidaas te quiero " Translated it says "Hello I love you very much with all of my heart and carino(can't even translate that word right), I like it when you take care of me because you are very fun and thank you for helping me with my homework and because you take care of me i love you" It almost brought tears to my eyes it was so sweet. My girls give me so much grace. Even when I mess up, when I don't treat them with love, they bless me with hugs and kisses and snuggle up next to me or fall asleep in my arms. That makes it all worth it. I love them so very very much, they are blessings from God to me.
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"CariƱo" is an affectionate, tender and endearing form of love. Like a mother caressing her baby.
ReplyDeleteYou are a good mama. Your love for these girls is changing the future. Their future.
(((hugs)))